breadth.. i need to breadth harder..

all rights, my current mood is pretty fed up, irritated, angry..

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cosh yesterdae received an sms from a friend. asking for help with the church's deco. it gave me the impression that i was supposed to help with putting up the decos and so on. but second sms came after i agreed by saying, "ok", and it saes, you can ask ch to help also, im going holiday soon, so you must ensure that something is done. accidently or cooincinently, i became the incharge of the church xmas deco? out of goodwill, i accepted it, cosh i was being ensured that help will be given to me and i was onli supposed to come out with the design layout.

todae, i recieved another sms from the same person, saying that i will have to come out with the layout as well as to put up all the decos by this sundae. honestly, im not happy. but i've already agreed to help out. and you guys kept on pushing ur luck. great! the so call incharge of the deco called me this noon and wants or rather, expects something out of me asap. she said, the decos were supposed to be organized and designed souple of weeks ago, but she did not know wat happend. so i told her nicely, i need to rush my sip report so i can spare some time for the designing later part of this week. NOPE THAT WAS NOT ACCEPTED! WTH.. all rights, you all like to play it this wae rite. i will give u the two days design. who cares. people in this church just likes to push the responsibilities around.

let me put it clear. i agreed to lending my helping hand cosh my bf reminded me recently that i could make my own decisions of doing things. so i decided not to put him as my main priority. that's y i wanted to make up for my lost in church. all rights, since my christianity was being held up as stake and i cant reject or simply be so irresponsible like them, this is the last time i will contribute to this church. i promised.

i was very affected by what you said yesterdae. my sis is leaving for overseas without me for the first time in her 17years of life. and u said to leave her to die and let her survive herself. yes. i should let her learn the independence since she had already grown up. out of concern, i still have to ensure that she brought the required medication and clothes. she is my onli sister in the world. i negected her cosh i kept handing out with u, i kept going tkd. u think my bloody stepmom is going to care about her. no one else. ever since 10years ago, we were left to survive ourselves. anw, u do not have to care either, cosh it doesnt concern u at all. maybe u should think back about ur recent tempers and remarks. you never care if it hurts.

oh God, y are all these happening at the same time. and my projects are rushing in so fast. i seriously cant wait to complete my course end of next month!!!!! damn..

i pray that my sis will take care of herself. nothing should happen to all of them..