reflections..

it's holy sunday again. but erms. like im not that holy though..

anw. sat through the sundae school class and sermon respectively without falling asleep.. and i tot these two are pretty interesting and important topic of my life.. lets see..

1. sundae school class
Topic: Sufferings.

Verses: Hebrews 2:9-10..
But we see Jesus, who was made a little lower than the angels, now crowned death, so that by the grace of God he might taste death for everyone. In bringing many sons to glory, it was fitting that God, for whom and through whom everything exists, should make the author of their salvation prefect through sufferings.

in my life, i tink i havent really suffered badly after attending this sundae sch class. i was just complaining about small hiccups of my life. i should mature more and move on.. again. i thank God for my courage and his nice plans. again. I pray for WISDOM and faith. =)

2. sundae sermon
it's about marriage. erms. roughly, it mentioned that it's a law/rule in christ that wife should always submit to husband, as the husband is the leader of the house just like the pillar of church. on the other hand, husband must always dote on his wife. eh. i tot this was pretty touching leh. i will continue to pray for this pillar of my life..

lousy.

im totally in a lousy mood.. this will be a damn long post.

firstly. im scared and worried.. cosh at the age of 20, im supposed to go over to indonesia-batam to help out my dad and eventually succeed his 13 years of blood and sweat.. i feel very lonely at times when im in batam.. living in a foreign country, knowing that for the next 10years or so, i will be stationed there.. and i had to learn their language, their culture and etc. dad wants me to stand by myself. so there wasnt much spoon feeding. i had to search for sample formats or do them myselfs and seek for agreement.

i had to be pretty thick skin and approached the staff one by one and start learning the ropes. it was really hard, given my "face" and my "pride". but eventually, i managed to miger with them. thanks God.

other gals at the age of 20 will chiong till mad, have fun till late. but i cant. i got serious business to do. i cant afford to waste my time awae.. my dad kept telling me im different from other normal gals. cosh i got serious stuffs to handle. i can play. but work comes first. others learn majong, learn clubbing, i need to learn drinking and handling of customers. hahhahas! for this, i tot it was fun. wahahas.

secondly, i onli comes back to sg on fri nite and all the way, i will accompany my bf. i left my sister alone for the whole week and yet i spent zero time with her. im really a lousy sister. but when i leave the weekend to spend time with my sis, my bf complains that i never spend time with him or i purposely dun want to go to his place and etc. on the other hand, my sis just kept quiet.. she never complains. hais. im troubled.

thirdly, i had to teach this group of cute tkd kids, tkd aerobics. and trust me, they are absolutely cute and energetic when comes to tkd.. but while teaching them, i neglected their grading patterns and i neglected myself. i stopped training for months.. but i was supposed to go for grading.. as much as im not prepared to go, i had to go. i need to train up on my stamina within like one week? hahas! thats ambicious.

forthly, i really want to visit my grandma and cousins.. but i really cant find the extra time to visit them.. i was really physically and mentally tired these few days.. mayb bcosh my mens is coming? hahas! whenever i find the time, i will fall sleep.. lol.. really tired leh..

fifthly, i've neglected all my friends. i cant catch up on them.. i felt bad for missing out bird's house warming and coming bdae celebration. but this coming weekend, it's my grading and the kids aerobics performances.. i thank u all, for being so nice and considerate to me leh.. really. thanks for "allowing" me to skip the gathering.. but really sorry. i really am..

and todae. i was feeling even worst and i initiate a quarrel and break up with my bf. in my mind, he keeps hinting me that he wasnt interested in our relationship anymore. his frequent temper, volume, irrtations. further more, he kept commenting that im a childish small kid. i told him that mayb he should find a more mature gf den. he saes that im kicking a big fuss. i guess i was? hahas. like i told him, i'm tired of handling his temper and mood swings. but he saes it's my mood swings. i guess so? watever.

wat i need to do now. is. learn as much as i can.. and help out my dad as much as i can.. i have to work for my future.. i cant waste my time away.. i PRAY for WISDOM. =)

long tiring week..

haha.. havent been blogging..

erms..

firstly, i went to batam on 21stmarch (gd.friday). but this time as tour guide.. eh.. derrick, alex, dennis, jeremy, sarah, sihui and xe came also! whoohoo.. alot people.. had a pretty nice time there.. especially that cable-ski!!!! damn fun and shiok.. best part is : $20 for 2.5hours!! omg.. so cheaply cheap..

secondly, went BKM office on wed after the trip.. the people there are sucky.. yucks. that bitch was supposed to teach me the ropes of their accounting software. but ended up, she's on leave.. ermx. and i was pushed around in the office.. worst of all.. i was made to clean files, do fillings, shread paper, packing.. fyi, i was supposed to be trainned there..

being quite thick skin, i asked them to teach me the ropes, and they sae they do not have anything in mind to teach me, asked me to sit and stare into blank.. hais. wasted two full days there.. worst still i need to wake up at 5am and catch the 6.05 bus and catch the company's shutter bus at 7.05 in admiraty mrt station.. aiyo.. irritating.. by time i reached home, it's around 8pm already... sian..

anw. happy ending, i smsed that bitch, told her im going back to batam. she din reply. ok. fine. i hack care liao.. feeling tired now.. stomach pain - mens is coming! omg@!!! hahas..

M Mosquito Killer Racket

heres some photos that i've managed to upload. lol. the rest lazy to upload la..





erms. that's the M MOSQUITO KILLER RACKET! damn cool. u should witness how the evil mosquitoes got zapped.. lol! new toy for me.. =D
but somehow, my dad seems to be more worried of his so called "pet mosquitoes". he's worried that i will eliminate the whole mosquitoes clan.. whahahhas!

anw. saw the fish at the top left hand corner of the picture? that's his favourite pet - arowana.. lol..
lastly, this is me. during the first week of stay in indo-batam. the nice* scenery behind me is a dock. where ships comes in for repair and blasting. nothing to do so take photo lor. hahahs.!
back to sg tonite!!!

first first first..

haha.

first time killed a mosquito with my new "M KILLER RACKET!" - POWERRRRRR ah..

first time make coffee for dad using his new coffee making machine..

first time cook maggie mee in indonesia..

first time drink the indonesia all time favourite drink, "ZESTEA!" - eh. like normal pokka green tea lor.. just that it's sweeter. indonesians love sweet and salty stuffs like they lost their taste budds..

first time got so occupied with work - though is just creating of standard formats, minutes and etc..

first time attend a 16men, all indonesia.language meeting - but i still managed to capture sae, 60% of their conversations la!

haha. heng la. not so bored todae.. time flies pass faster..

back to sg tml! wahahhas!

yahoooOOOOOOOOOOoooooo!!!!~~~

long lonely entry.

todae in batam.. i was very lonely.. dad left for the yard earli morning after i alight his car at 8.30am.. and the auditors came to do their regular auditing.. i was like left alone.. pretty lonely.. cos i was supposed to like make my wae downstairs to the "malays" alone and sit there find something to do.. dad never assign anything and i was like . lost.

anw. i made some thinking thought.. i think im too used to being assigned stuffs to do and work at.. now that im left alone and lost. i need to initiate liao.. but u know. making the first step is difficult. especially in an all malay environment. when ur the boss's daughter. etc.. hais.

anwhow, i went downstairs after walking a few rounds in my office.. with abit thicker skin, i said hello to all and approached one of the staff.. i did some usless stuff helping them out.. den i got bored. rolling my eyes around the room. after few minutes of blank staring. i approached a staff and asked her to teach me what she's doing.. (i was supposed to learn all the different job scops of each individual staff.). luckily, she kept me occupied till lunch.

dad still not back, so i headed upstairs to play game. hahas.. decided not to go down after lunch cosh very ackward. everyone is busy with their own stuffs. so i did more playing of games (since it's my own office, people got to knock before entering - no one knocked! hahhaas). and around 5pm. dad finally came back. i was speechless. haven talked for like 5 hours.. hahahas! stunned.

i'm a little scared. there's so many things to learn. but i've got to make the first step. May God gives me more courage tml. i've blogged long enuff..

tata.

mood: lonely.

long weekend..

wow. how time flies. last dated blog was last mon..

again, it's monday.. hahas! batam tml morning again.. hahas.. anw. last weekend was spent having lunch with bird, mq and current. hahas! nice chicken rice outing! hehehs.. sat was spent with darling and dinner with gilko and the rest. hahas! nice food again..

sun was spent in church and at the IT Fair with darling.. hahas! and that marked the end of my weekend! whahahahs.. time to work again..

sian la.. after long weekend, tml morning 7.50am ferry.. yawns.. tonite tkd aerobics again.. nice. hahas.. lovely kids.. loves.

it's monday midnite now.. hahahas.

hahas.

it's tue tml. erms. again! hahas..

means - going to batam for the next 4 days!! hahas.. erms. this time round, not excited liao.. rather, im prepared.. bought a new novel - cecilia ahern's "a place called here". yea. hahas.. 3rd book i bought in this year.. i guess.. anw. im going to indulge myself in the novel again. hees.. talking about books, i borrowed "rich dad, poor dad" from dennis.. heng ah. dun need to buy.. duno y now a days got urge to buy novels and story books. hahahas! (maximize the usage of my popular card).

just packed my bag for batam trip. this time, a smaller and lighter bag.. hehes.. bought a couple of vcds and my harddisk along too.. hahas. hopefully my office is ready by tml.

considering to enrolled myself for SIM's Bsc Marketing Course. erms. it's a 4 years course i think.. but considering i could exempt 6 modules out of the 23 modules, mayb i just need 2.5 years to complete the whole course? hahas.. course is starting in july, better decide fast..

anw, i miss birdy, miss mq, miss current, miss atq.. miss alot people.. lets catch up a day ok.. if not. erms. lets go batam for holiday!! wahhahahas.. loves.

limited weekends now..

yea. im back in sg.. ahhaas.. finally..

actuali life in batam is super simple and plain.. everymorning, my dad's alarm will set off at 8am - sg time. and by 8.30am, we will set off for breakfast in town and head off to the shipyards.. den noon time, will have lunch at the "onli" kopitiam near the shipyard.. thereafter, will return to office to finish some paper work and wait to knock off at 5pm.. hahas..

those days were boring and quite lonely, totally understand how my dad spent his 13 years there alone.. ahahas.. i miss sg very much during my first nite there.. actuali - tears in my eyes.. cosh everything is new, place, people, environment, language, culture, etc.. but thank God, there's my dad to guild me everything.. hahahs..

i cant wait to get back to sg and spend time with darling.. really.. as mentioned, i neglected him last time.. we caught a movie - fools' gold on fri nite and the whole of sat was wasted in ntu.. watching friends fight and etc. which i tot was really wasted. and i tot tml can go suntec with him cosh he din participate in any tournament this year, but he is so generous - going to ntu earli in the morning till 10pm for volunteery work as reefree.. anw, i've wasted a sat sitting there doing nothing. i wont waste another sundae sitting there.. my weekends are really limited.. i will try to spend more quality time with my sis and friends then.. hahas..

mood: quite sad?