hebrews 13:5

i've just cleaned up the "already.3.months.un.cleaned.fish.tank" of mine minutes ago.. and thinking back, this group of 7.fishes are the 3rd generation of the pioneer fishes.. lol.. and as i look at the fishes, i reminded myself - time never wait.. (i felt a painful pierce in my heart).. i need to maximize and manage my time well..

i guess i had been pretty emotional for the past few days.. keeping my tears back and kept thinking how bitter my life is and etc.. i'm not trying to be like a brand new holy person out the blue, but as i picked myself up from the "unidentified period" of absents to God's words, and started flipping through the super newly looking hardcover of my devotion material that's covered with dust.. i received a deep comfort.. my favourite verse:

i will NEVER leave you, nor forsake you - hebrews 13:5

and i think and though and think and asked myself: have/had anyone on earth ever made this promise to me other than my father in heaven? no one ever "Dare" to make this kind of promise.. not my bf, not my father, not my grandparents, not my friends, not anyone but Him.. He didnt use the word - "forever" like all typical bfs will sae to their gfs, whereas, He used "NEVER".. i thank Him for this deep comfort and assurances..

and today, surprisingly, yh spoke to me online and we talked about work and etc.. and she said to me, " this is the challenge and opportunity given to you, face it, overcome it.. i wished i was given this kind of opportunity given to me at your age.." she wont be reading this but i still want to thank her for the encouragements this noon.. (: