sick

im starting to hate the entire idea of community or social work.. or rather the word - voluntary..

two years had passed, what have i learnt?

firstly, the group wasnt as active as i supposed or expected it to be.. it never was and i supposed, it neve was, but i hope someday it will be..

im tired of consistenly asking my friends to join the events yec had organized just to fill up the vacancies.. friends are also tired of filling up the "gaps"..

im tired of doing all sort of publicity and yet, i have to follow them up myself..

im tired of suggesting any suggestions during meeting as what ever i suggested will definietly had to be done and carried by yours truly..

im sick of having anything to do with yec.. if not for the bf, i would have left yec long ago..
but again, bcoz of this, we had to consistently quarrel over stupid yec issues..

how irritating..