i just need a little space to write.. dun need any comments. thanks.

yups. like many.. like chingz, like mq.. like all.. i too almost died in the mid-sem papers.. lol.. onli entre paper made me laugh.. hahahhahaas.. anw.. left with one last test to go.. coming mon.. yeah! and the date lines for all reports will come in one after the other.. and ta ta IM GRADUATING! fast eh. so happy.

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anw. wasnt happy with the smses that derrick tang sent me. i just want to write everything out here, so that i will feel emotionally better inside me and fully concentrate in my final year reports. yes. there is this big incident going on.. and everything sounded like it's my fault and i wanted it to happen. if he ever recalled raising his voice at me last sun about this particular incident or if he ever recalled sending me all negative and fustrated smses asking me to do this do that, i mean demanding me to do this and do that, all bcos of this incident..? noped. i dont think he remembers them.

eversince, i really got the *urge to blurt out the mayb regretful words upon reading the current sms that saes, " just dont come and tell me how i know this how i know that." .. mayb or probably after blurting all those words out, i wont feel that i need him to do this or that. and he could save his efforts in raising his voice at me. i dont have to care if he had ever spare abit of concern on my feelings. maybe? you know that i still loves u.. but do u? i duno.. anw. i cant be bothered also. cosh u too cant be bothered.. so, i'll just concentrate on my report writing..

sometimes i really do not know if i deserve all these nasty smses.. i was in the middle of tests.. im still drowning in report writings and research.. you knew all these.. but mayb, u prefer to irritate and gives me more frustrations and worry at this prosperous time.

this incident also made me feel that i've been treating my sister similarly. i shouldnt have made her feel that it's her fault that her shoulders hurts. i'm sorry sissy.. i will pay more attention to my actions now..

back to work.