moving on..

erms.. with regards to the previous post, i'm moving on.. if you think that im acting selfishly, den think again on how "un-selfishly" you were in the past.. if you think that im acting brave or egoistic, infact i am.. coz im still feeling very hurt with whatever was conversed previously..

i dun see any need to answer your calls or reply ur smses, unless other wise stated.. so you dun have to call me up either.. you said if i just dun want to make effort, so be it.. but i would say, why make this effort when everything will go back to square one, like all the past experiences.. since you've said all you want to, and me vice versa, and yet we cant bring the message across to each other, what makes u think that in the future we can? and what makes me assured that in the future u will be there when i needed you? come drive me? or pamper me? or spend more time with my family, instead of only me spending time with u and ur family?

i read through the last email (mayb you can read back on what you wrote and how many came true) that you sent me after our last quarrel.. and you said this, But the question is“ Are u able to endure whatever nonsense from me. IF yes den what I can promise u is to be there for u when u needed me most and will of cos take care of u.” but where were u when i needed you the most? and i dun need these kind of assurances when it doesnt come true.. they just seems like the numbers on a bounced cheque..

since you said that you're starting your career and you have to divert all ur time and energy to more serious things for your future.. go ahead with all ur plans.. im not going to cry another tear or think childishly anymore.. coz it's not worth it.. im certainly not the perfect or the wonderful gf.. but that doesnt matter anymore.. and im not going to complaint any of these again.. kinda repetative and childish..

as far as im concerned, you only read your other friend's blog.. if you even bother to read my blog, atleast my entries are not wasted.. let me know what's ur decisions.. if there's no decisions, mayb we should conclude this relationship in proper..